Turn around.

My emotions are starting to evolve into something so ugly in such a haste, I can't help but constantly reminded myself that I had to CURB my sane self before I kill anyone. I don't get it, but I've been getting hit by pangs and pangs of ANGER every single fucking day. It's a miracle I didn't blew my top at anyone, or did I? I think I did. But I have good reasons to why I do it. Don't I? SIGH. Whatever.. Ohhhhh God.. My Guan Yin Ma, I'm so sick and tired everyday. Maybe the prayers to simmer down worked. 'Ask and be given.' I do pray, to yes, keep myself sane. Hmmm. I'm not insane!

The lingering scent of the past had just wafted by.. I kept thinking over and over the things you said to me, the thing we did together and you just having you here with me. Well, it never fails to put a smile across my face, but I guess you never knew how much this meant to me and how could this actually shred me up into nothing, deep down here. You were never a lie, and I always believed you. Just... We weren't meant to be. Sigh, all this empty metaphors, they're all in vain. Wished wished wished, there was just someone, like you. I missed you. I missed your scent, hugs and kisses. IFMY... Enough of wandering back, high time to chuck it aside again.. It always happens, when you can't help but just look back...

Well, Tuesday will see me in school having my first paper. And Thursday, will see me in school, having my LAST paper :D Heh, can't wait. And soon it will be the last 2 weeks of holidays in my poly life! Projects, assignments and SIP :) HIRE ME! HIRE ME! :D Okay. Keeping all my fingers crossed. Hope to get a pt job soon, and then excel well for SIP. Hmmhmm.. Praying, I'm praying! I'll get through itttttt. :D

This few days, home seemed to be a nice place to be in. Food served at the dinner table, a comfy couch for you to slouch your ass off, watching the tele, or just reading my notes and novels. Like everything's there in place for you. And it is really a wrong time to indulge myself with novels, 'cause I won't have the heart to even study now! Oh well... There's no place like home. :)

Allowance's in. Thank goodness lar. I can stop eating grass now. Okay back to work! Time seems to be crawling. And I just forgot about my pippin' hot cuppa tea! Toodles. Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you guys, I might be shifting. Blog address lar. :D I need a journal I can lock my friggin' post up. Wordpress seems to be the in thing now, eh? Stay tuned! Love y'all.

P.S. Amelia Foo Shi Min, my darling jiejieeeeee. Thanks for the help recently :D Owe you one! And Huininggggg :D Thanks for hearing out my woes :D You're love!

Clenched fist.

Sunday morning saw me at Mono at 4AM in the freaking morning. LOL. Chilled out with the Artery peeps and had like a really filling breakfast after that. We went for some Nasi Lemak around Sembawang and then I went noob mj-ing with 2 freaking morons (Ethan & Derrick) at Derrick's place while Baby went home. They literally sucked my chips dry mannn. Damn you guys lar, I don't know how to play mj right?! But they were generous enough to stop the game and I didn't have to pay them a single cent :p hahaha. Then... just imagine two guys in their mid-twenties watching Dragonball. Seriously, wtf. LOL. Sneaked out of the house and went home to bathe. Wanted to take a nap but I didn't in the end.

Soooooo.. I went to meet Poldars to celebrate twin love's 19th in the evening. :D We went Mind's cafe to play some games and chilled. It was a blast and we were like the noisiest group yesterday. LOL. Played my favourite game, Uglydoll! :DD And the rest of them were like so freaking bimbo please?! Screaming and snatching all the cards, both of them even tore a card up! LOL. Violent bitches! LOL. True Colours was a nice relaxing game. And the forfeits were super uber gay please! LOL. We danced, yelled and acted so damn crazy at the cafe. Hehhh. But it was super uber fun man! So after Minds, we went down to Haji Lane for sisha. I think the flavour sucks like shit. The after taste of the mint was horrid and it just stays in your throat. Ucccck. Not going ot try that sucky shitty flavour ever again. LOL. Got kinda wasted and soon after had to head home 'cause mum's threatening to cut my allowance. Damn it.

I stayed awake for 40hours before I went to bed last night. YAWNS. And at 11AM, I got a call from Boobies to accompany her and Ethan for lunch! ZZZ. We went to have KFC and then came back my place and we played Black Jack and watched emotional music videos on youtube. Effing gay larrr. Lol. Don't you think today is so effing WARM AND HUMID. OMG. Was so dehydrated and warm lar. So we went to dip in the pool at Hougang. BOOBIES CAN'T SWIM. You lousy boooo. LOL. You swim like a frantic puppy lar. FINALLY. Last stop for the day was 401 for Rojak and Nor Hiang :p hahaha. I'm tired. Yawns.

Baby Feli, please be safe. Take care please.. And God bless Woonkiat. SIGH.
Won't you keep me away from the hurt? Just keep me safe in here...?